Birds, abstracts….abstract humans, possibly….but NOT anyone specific…that’s what I’m learning.
I always want to try and draw on a really crap day…thinking it’ll make me feel better. Doing some art, being creative…and then it just ALL FALLS APART.
I thought I had a niche. I don’t.
I blag “talent”.
I want to believe in myself but I feel I have no real artistic ability whatsoever.
I genuinely feel overwhelmed. Something is happening to me. I don’t understand it. I don’t know how this has happened. I don’t know WHERE it’s coming from…how it got here…what it is.
I hated art class at school because I sucked at it. I couldn’t draw to save my life and by the time I was in my teens, my skills hardly improved from when I was 5 or 6! Well, that is how it felt, anyway. All the other kids seemed to show SOME KIND of advancement in artistic skill. Not I!
And NOW?! Just…WHAT IS THIS? From being not able to draw ANYTHING well to THIS?!!
Very hard to achieve that iridescent gloss they have to their feathers…esp. with what is essentially watercolours…but I am much happier with this one today. Sadly, I seem to actually have BETTER control without the stylus. Ho hum! I’m AMAZED I can do bird eyes so well! Their legs on the other hand…
Practice, practice, practice! And patience! I need patience! I tend to rush too much I need to calm my sh*t down! Lol
Another day, another bird…
My latest try. A bluethroat. Still need to work on so much…ratios, perspective…so much to learn! But I got myself an artists stylus to use on the iPad Mini and I cannot WAIT for it to turn up! These are taking me roughly 20-30 mins to do…so I can see that with much practice, patience and time, I can get good! Even if birds is all I can do, I'll be happy! There are SSOO many birds to draw! :-))
I’m feeling desperately low today.
I’m ready to go home.
I still have no words, really…
I just have no words, really. I do them because I love it…doing something creative. I never thought I had it in me…but it’s all down to this app on my iPad Mini. And when there is time…a spare hour in the afternoon, when mum and I are having “down time”, that’s when I try to create one.
I can’t draw. I can’t paint. Well, I can paint by numbers! Lol. (I actually DO LOVE doing painting by numbers.) But I can recycle…augment…manipulate…and sometimes turn the lyrics into a visual interpretation.
I try to use a picture of Jim or the band time specific to the song (this picture of him was a screenshot from the 1984 Dortmund gig). I also try as much as possible not to use copyright images (hence the majority of pictures used are screengrabs from videos or live performances).
They take time. Learning my way…
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